i dont even know what to title it

you know when you are listening to your ipod and it sometimes sounds like everyone else can hear it too but its only you, but you wish they could? well i wish my heart was like that. i want people to be able to hear its beat because i cant anymore. even though its an inconstant beat, i have gotten use to its chaos .......its like its not even there anymore 

like im heartless. and im so sick of feeling like this i want someone to here it.......

i need someone to listen to tell me im still alive

not the the living dead...

i just wanna be able to feel again