hurricane bob

the wind comes and goes but its stuck in a storm.

 that doesnt led up. 

sudden twist and turns make it the worst 

each gust is just another powerful blow

yet the palm tree doesnt even move no matter how hard the wind blows

stage

my passion has left me and i forgot the reason why i ever did it in the first place

without my passion i am lost 

now that im lost 

pehaps i have lost myself................................................................................

destiney

im happy but not at the same time

i forget about it but then i remember why i forgot about it in the first place

it hurts yet it soothes me

i love it but at the same time i want to destroy it

i dont need it yet i do 

i would die without it yet i would live................................much happier without it

questions

why did i ever fucking care in the first place
why did i let it grab a hold of me
why did i let it choke me
why did i let it suffocate me
why did i let it kill me
but why did i let the hands revive myself ............................













when all it did was remind me why i ever let it take me for the ride

frustration

i keep lying to myself but its for my own good
but am i keeping myself from somthing needed
the more i lie to myself the bigger my web of lies is and the harder it is for myself to keep up
if it is meant to be it would happen
this is natural and why should i keep myself from that
its because im afraid and prentending that this doesnt exsist and me lying to myself wont make me weak cuz "i wont be scared"
im just afraid if i let the truth out i will ruin somthing so beautiful
i rather lie then distroy

complex

in its most complicated form.............................


















men -_-

yay

so my week is looking pretty amazing!!!

monday: hanging with the twin

tuesday: dentist then disneyland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wednesday: hanging and making a film

thursday: disneyland again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

friday: jam session then jordan coming over

the best week or wut :D